I am neurotic about time. I would rather be 15 minutes early than 1 minute late. I also like to have a schedule. 'Wasting' time is something that drives me a bit crazy.
I had my spiritual life pretty on schedule. Now, I don't know about anyone else but I find that when I try inserting 'Robert' knows best into my spiritual life all I ever end up with is a good chuckle from God. My schedule was pretty impressive though.
5:30 am - I read the daily readings and start with some prayer.
6:30 am - morning prayer
9:30 am - rosary
6:30 pm - evening prayer
9:00 pm - spontaneous prayer before bed
On Friday's I would go to morning mass at 8:30 am. This schedule felt pretty good, pretty comfortable. God does not like us to get too comfortable though. When we are too comfortable we can forget that we need Him. This time was no different. God was not about to leave me comfortable too long.
My daily rosary time was getting many conflicts. Friday morning mass was getting rearranged by different things. My wife wanted to do evening prayer with me but not until later in the day. I was being forced to look at and change my prayer life.
My frustrations were actually bringing me closer to God. I was starting to have more contemplative and reflective prayer. Some of my old devotions, while still good, were taking a temporary back seat. A healthy and alive prayer life is one that is always changing and evolving. I find I am moving closer to living in the presence of God where he is with me always.
Sometimes, I feel like my prayer life is getting flat or dry. This brings me joy though because I know that is where I will meet Jesus on a whole new, exciting level. I pray that everyone will allow themselves to be in that place where they will meet Jesus on a whole new level.
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